♦17Jul10 Cannonball into the water.

Usually when I have massive headaches like last night - I got to bed really early, have one of the best sleeps, and wake up feeling great. Not this time though. Not last night. I guess I just had too much on my mind that I had a lot of trouble going to sleep. I remember waking up around 4 a.m. and imagining I got a text from somebody. Even though I was sorta expecting one, I was scared to check who it was from and what it said. I figured I'd be too distracted to fall back asleep if I checked, so I tried waiting 'til morning. That failed miserably 'cause I ended up staying up for a long while and when I checked, there was nothing.

I fell back asleep, but then woke up to a semi-nightmare a few hours later. This time I had an actual dream of myself receiving and checking a text. I remember specifically who it was from, what it said, and how I felt. I really can't remember the last time I felt so crushed from a dream before, especially since it felt so real. It mirrored my reality so completely that I woke up heart-pounding and in shock. Of course when I checked, there was nothing there, but it did make me think about what would have happened if it were real. Let's just say it would've literally change my everyday routine, from going to school to going to bed.

But after some thought, I realized I was over thinking things and getting worked up off of something I'm not doing anything about. I seriously can't remember last time I've felt this way about anything though. It's haunting me.