Waiting has got to be one of the most aggravating things. I consider myself a fairly patient person too, but if its anything like last night, my mind goes crazy with a million possible scenarios. Both good and bad situations are played out in my head, it's just that my mind always dwells on the negative. I start preparing for the worst and begin losing sight of the more realistic possibilities. Even with a thousand clues pointing me in the right direction, I'm still blinded by a thousand and one unlikely outcomes. I'm sure if I talked it through with someone else, they'd be able to steer me in the right way. But yeah.. I just didn't go to anyone.
It felt like a big burden was taken off my shoulders after our talk, even though it was all in my head in the first place. The way I was feeling was nothing short of indescribable. Those words, hesitant, yet so reassuring. I don't know if I can say I saw it coming, just 'cause my head was coming up with the worst of the worsts. Looking back now, it was pretty silly considering how much I was worrying.
Is it a bad thing that I prepared for the worst? I don't know but I guess its more than just the anxiety of not knowing that sucks so much. I knew, I was just waiting.
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