♦31Jan10 We're eating ice cream.

**realized I dated the year wrong in my last two posts -_-

Soooooooo I haven't done anything here in like a month. Main reason is probably 'cause of school. My life hasn't been very exciting since it started four/five weeks ago. In terms of priorities, it goes chem1a>engl1a>math1b. I haven't had gen chem since sophomore year so it's pretty much as if I'm learning everything for the first time. Tutor please? I've always hated english. I read like a third grader and can't write essays for the life of me. I'm hella glad this is the last real english class I have to take though. As for calc, I'm as grateful as balls to have had Ms Nguyen as my AB teacher. I pretty much know all the material we're learning in class. My current teacher doesn't nitpick on notation as much, so the class is relatively easy. I would never be able to learn from my current teacher if I came into her class not knowing shit.

Cal Poly was probably the last interesting thing I've done in a while. Went with alex, andrew, bryan, jesse, and lilybeth. We were supposed to leave Friday, but went to aileens thing instead. Semi-crossfade? Does lip balm count haha. The drive down there felt longer since we took the van to fit everyone. Stopped by Sonics on the way. The party that night was kinda weird. In a good way. Sorta. When we found the place it seemed hella crazy. Like oh-shit-this-is-a-forreal-cal-poly-party. It was in an apartment on the third floor. The music was crazy loud from the outside. Inside it was cramped as fuck. You couldn't really walk anywhere but there was a bar with a tender and everything. Only one table of bp. It was still coo though. People rolling in the music and blacklight were pretty funny. Bp champ-killers?? Kinda sortaa.

Dunno when I'll be able to do something again =\ Only reason why I have time to write this is 'cause I'm waiting for my peer editors to respond to my essay haha. Work still sucks. I'm getting less hours now, which is good. I really want to quit so I'll have more time for other things. I'm not in a big need for money or anything but I know if I leave, I won't have another job in a while. I guess I'm kinda waiting for a good reason to quit.

I've been feeling like I'm on auto-pilot lately. You know that feeling when you it seems like you aren't really in control of what you're doing? You're just doing it cause you know you have to. Kinda depressing huh.